When I was eight I hated summer
It was juice-box sticky
and every day I scraped myself
off my sheets
and poured my body into a glass.
At twenty-two,
I don't remember peeling my legs
off a wooden chair come June,
but how our hands were damp with nerves
when we held them,
how the AC on the bus was too much
so my scarf became your blanket and
we ate curry with my parents
before I fell asleep on your shoulder.
Or when you told me not to swim too far out
and the ocean was too cold,
how you got sunburned and I bit my tongue
so hard holding back
"I told you so"
that I swear I bled,
your eyes reflecting the fish at the aquarium,
how you teased
I'll Never Grow Tired by daybreaksmiles, literature
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I'll Never Grow Tired
Tonight I'm going to stop you
on the porch, we'll stand toe to toe
the way we used to when
the pulse that thrummed
quick and strong through our veins
sang out our young, unbridled hope.
Our eyes will meet and,
just like the first time,
I'll take a moment to run my fingers
through your shining thoughts and
caress the sharp lines of your mind.
I'll lean forward and press my lips onto
the the flower-petal curve of your self-expression,
and that will be enough for you
to take me by the hand
and lead me up the stairs.
In the soft moonlight that filters through
the trees and our gauzy curtains
I'll unbutton your fears and slip them
Sometimes, love is a violent thing --
first expanding as a supernova
and burning everything it reaches
then imploding into a black hole
and extinguishing everything it absorbs
who around is woven
into madness?
we don't vanish,
we abscond. we're the gnash
of heathen song against
the pulpit; we are terror
undeserved. we are wrath.
red as war, enacting torture,
dripping fashionably crimson.
not a symptom, we're the cause.
we are lawless rapture. tension
when we glare, daring anyone
to mention us. be wary
of entrusting this dimension
with your life.
brandished just like knives
embledded, bid us sever deeper.
lend etiolating skin
to court the reaper. rash
of you challenge chaos,
cast your feeble eyes
upon the form of vast decay.
your grasp upon reality
indubitably worthless.
taste dismay and full
excruciating purge.
today i speak fluently in apologies
they leap from my tongue so naturally
i speak the word "sorry" like it is an endearing term
like i'm kissing you better, like i'm bandaging the wound i caused
even if it's just a papercut or nothing at all.
i am saturated with these apologies
and no matter how hard i scrub my skin
they do not come out
i am weighed down with them, i reek with the stench of confessions
to crimes i did not commit.
i am stained with this illusion of inferiority
that i have spilled all over myself
thinking maybe it was the right thing to do
thinking i was destined to be
everybody's secretary, everybody's subordinate
just a klu
Your family tree simply grew this way.
Your mother’s tongue cut throats as well as stone walls, but it never reached your skin. You considered this a blessing, failing to account for the million praises you never heard. Since the moment you were born, she struggled to separate your face from her morning coffee. She lived in a slow blur and you were an alert inconvenience. Nearly every morning she faded through the kitchen and living room, reciting old sorrows to herself while you wondered what you had done to confuse her.
Sometimes she remembered to kiss you goodnight. Other times she pretended you didn’t exist when you cried fo
i lingered in my mother's belly
like a hunger
five days after i was due
to make my grand appearance.
it's almost as if i was hesitant to leave the womb,
to break upon this empty sky as dawns do,
spill my colors like glowstick syrup on this bleak world,
or maybe, let the world
spill its bleakness onto my beauty
a newborn baby
wrapped in cotton and swaddled in fate
as i grew older,
i witnessed the other kids losing their baby teeth and
i wanted nothing to do with it
i let my teeth dangle like christmas ornaments
hanging by threads,
didn't want to sever the ties i had to the past
the first food i ate went past these very teeth
they erupted fr
she never did teach me just what fast is by pansydiv, literature
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she never did teach me just what fast is
cityscape and roses, she's not a chain-smoker
but she breathes in gulps, she breathes oxygen chains.
she's aesthetic folded into leather jackets
and eyes shadowed by rebellion. she won't stain her liver
with vodka or beer, she drinks diet mountain dew
in large swallows like birds slipping down a throat,
but feathered sins are twice as beautiful, darling.
[you're no good for me.]
we sit on the bonnet of your vintage car
from the 70s, you tell me, and I smile
letting my feet slide over the dashboard.
girl, we are hipster glory and rhododendron fury
you crown my head with wreaths of flowers
red like your retro lipstick, scarlet like my soul
[d
2:45 am:
Depression finds me with
flickering eyes and
aching wrists and it
pulls back the covers of my bed,
sitting on the edge of my mattress
with hands folded in its lap
just like my mother when
she wanted to talk.
It stares at me, tight lipped,
a question in the air between us
and I breathe it in, blinking
salt veined eyes, then concede
with a nod.
12:15 pm:
Depression greets me
with my head buried in my pillows
and its hand against my hair
telling me to go back to sleep
so I curl into the refuge of my blankets
while the clock on my bedstand
ticks another few hours off my life.
6:00 pm:
Depression sneaks up on me
as I stare at the food
Day 12: Poetry by camelopardalisinblue, literature
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Day 12: Poetry
You mustn't forget that poetry
is not obscure words
and fancified circumstances
thinly married and filthy
with pretension--
it is familiar words and
those moments we've all lived
bonded and twisted together--
the strands of a bracelet
(or the plait of your hair),
bled into a cohesive whole
following the curve of your veins.